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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
11:26 pm
Sorry!
Okay so yeah its been a while since I updated, thats okay...

Rob and I are no more (as of like a month ago). Went to Letchworth Park on Saturday with Jon and Shan, Mikey too. It was absolutely gorgeous, I got a lot of new pictures to work with.

Okay so yeah since Im on the council over at LVI (Lost Video Island) IM here to advertise out tournament.

http://www.lostvideo.net/survey1.php

So go and vote! Yours truly has a video nominated for Best Ensemble and Best Drama...your support would mean a lot.

Anyway thats it for now!
Monday, September 19th, 2005
9:02 pm
What a weekend!
Such an extreme busy weekend!

Friday was pretty chill, but yet again, my dorkiness was showing by getting emotional from Battlestar Galactica... I worked on Saturday and that biotch kept putting in more and more people in at my work so I had to stay later. Then I went to the Dip N Dive to get my equipment for the river drift dive on Sunday. On Saturday I went to a party with ellen and re-met a cool guy named Rob. Then I had to much to drink and made an ass of myself...but thats okay, I guess thats why my friends are my friends- good and bad, right?

I never made it to my dive, I got sick (not from the booze). Anyway I got a credit for it, which is good considering I need to rent equipment for Saturday's, which I am DEFINITELY going to. Navigational dive and a night dive, and I have no real idea what either of those are all about, so this will be interesting.
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
4:03 pm
Im all out of love, I cant live WITHOUT you...
I had a big couple of days.
Yesterday I had a dentist appointment, and my mom and I drove all the way out to Niagara Falls to go to this DIVE SHOP. When we got there, they werent there ANYWAY. So bummer.

Today I had my final POST-OP appointment, and stopped to get the original radio for my car put back in(cost $50 at Circuit City). So that only took like 20 minutes. Then I stopped over at the DIP N DIVE to ask about my refresher course and I signed up for 3 different dives coming up: a drift dive, a night dive and a navigational dive. So IM well on my way to getting my Advanced Certification. Fun times. I still have to do like 4 boat dives, which to me personally is the most important considering my field school will probably be off of boats, and Ive never dived off of boats before. Its always a little panicky- kind of like snorkeling is when youve never done it before. But once you learn to breathe easy and even, and you really enjoy yourself. Too bad I dont know anyone who is into it around here. I wonder what kind of mutated fish Ill see in the Niagara River...then of course my mother had to make me nervous by saying "youll go over the falls!".

Then we did some other shopping and its just been from one place to another for me all day. Tonight is my refresher course, so that'll be fun.

Kent finally emailed me back, he was actually out of town. Maybe Ill stay with him on my way out of the country, Bobie is ecstatic- IDAHO is apparently WILD in the winter- a lot like ours. Which is okay, I just always had so much fun hanging out with her.

Current Mood: relaxed
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
2:32 pm
Survey
1. Most beautiful person you have ever seen in real life: Mike Malala (try to find picture later)
2. People (famous, dead or living, fictitious, whatever) you would choose to be LOST with: Oscar Wilde, Heather Nova, Ian Somerhalder, Josh Holloway, Dominic Monaghan, Jack Sparrow, Drew Barrymore, Sam Adams (the beer guy), Shanin Allen(and Mike), John Nowak, Diane Ackerman, grrr I cant answer my own question!
3. What dinosaur you would own as a pet (and why): Cuteoasaurus, because they would be small (no HUGE poop bag)
4. Worst day of your life (so far): There have been so many...when I found out that Neil had a girlfriend and didnt tell me
5. Best day of your life (so far): Day on the catamaran going to NEVIS with my dig
6. Whats the #1 quality in a romantic partner: Humor...chemistry!
7. Mentos: spearmint or mixed fruit? Fruit
8. Battlestar Galactica: New or old Starbuck: New- she's diesel!
9. Are you threatened by strong women? Hell no
10. Erectile dysfunction or baldness: Baldness- Id rock it like Patrick Stewart
11. Why surveys are horrible and annoying: They make you think duh...
12. Most useless piece of trivia you know: Gene Roddenberry's remains are in orbit.
13. Osteoperosis or rheumatoid arthritis: Arthritis
14. Enya ORINOCO FLOW or Enya MAY IT BE: MAY IT BE
15. Favorite member of Kilbrannan: Paul
16. Mummers Dance original or remixed: Original
17. Soup or muffin: Soup
18. Rolf or Sven: Sven
19. Heidi or Greta: Greta
20. CALGON or MANOS: Calgon
21. Who would play you in a Hollywood movie: Drew Barrymore
Who would you LIKE to play you in a Hollywood movie: Drew Barrymore
22. Who would play you in a LIFETIME TV movie: Sarah Chalke
Who would you LIKE to play you in a LIFETIME TV movie: Valerie Burtenelli, lol
23. ORTEGA or TORGO: ORTEGA

Current Mood: weird
9:38 am
I am up too early
So Im up at 9 am, I guess its good so Ill be tired later and get to sleep early for work tomorrow. And the cycle of crap jobs continues...

Watched the LOST blooper reel with Shan and John- it was too funny, but I think my favorite part would HAVE to be when Kate fell. I dont know it was just such a "D'OH!" moment!

Went out to dinner with them to the Moon Chinese Buffet- dont know if its the changing taste buds, but the sugar biscuits were severely lacking. The best thing about any buffet in Buffalo is, however, that no matter how fat or bad you feel about yourself, there is someone bigger there, guaranteed. Like the woman who loaded up on the biscuits in front of me.

We then went to Shan's to watch MAN WITH THE SCREAMING BRAIN- Ive seen worse, I really have.

We went to Frizzies then- shot some pool and I am the perpetual cheerleader


I actually checked my email last night at like 2:30 in the morning, and yeah, Richard emailed me, so I dont know what to do about that exactly. I responded, but now I cant remember what I said. He said he "heard about me and Wankie"- what the hell does that mean? So I dance with someone and they walk me to my car, and we are deeply in lust all of a sudden? And what right does he have to ask me about it? Whats his problem? I have to review what I said. Jerk off.


As promised: "AND DONT GO SKIMPIN' ON THAT GRAVY!"





Im off to go and finish painting the deck in the back and my HULA ABS AND BUNS video. And no Im not kidding.

Current Mood: calm

Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
12:07 pm
Survey
Thought it might be fun...

1. had sex: Sure- now what dimension was this?
2. bought something: Yes- bought my own copy of TERROR FIRMER (1999)- used, of course
3. gotten sick: Always a little sickly
4. sang: Yes!
5. been kissed: No- unless you count my grandma, and that was of course with no tongue (lol collective groan)
6. ate something: Yes- I had marshmallow cereal, yogurt, orange juice and some green tea
7. felt stupid: usually
8. talked to an ex: no
9. missed someone: yep

last person who....

1. slept in your bed: Richard- but he didnt really "sleep"...
2. saw you cry: Me mumsey
3. made you cry: Me mumsey
4. went to the movies with: 4 Brothers with Shanin

have you ever...

1. said "i love you" and meant it: To a family member? To a friend? Done that! To a "signifigant other"? NO!
2. been to california: Yes
3. been to mexico: yep
4. been to china: no
5. been to canada: many times
7. been to europe: yes
8. wished you were the opposite sex: sometimes- they seem to be able to get away with a lot more

almost done...

1. do you have a crush on someone: no one I personally know...I dont think Ian Somerhalder counts
2. what book are you reading now: Just finished "Quarterfe Crisis", continuing on with the Upanishads
3. worst feeling in the world: loneliness, but uncertainty is a close second
4. future kids names: Eowyn, Mairead, Peter
5. do you sleep with a stuffed animal: body pillow in Hawaiian print
6. favorite sports to watch: soccer
7. location: But-flow, soon to be Adelaide
8. piercing/tattoos: 8 total in the ears, 1 in the nose, soon to be one in the navel. Tattoo on back, hopefully one soon below my belly button
9. hot weather or cold? I like semi (sub) tropical
10. do you drink: Oh yeah- my poor, poor liver
11. what are you most scared of right now: Being alone and directionless
12. where do you want to get married: beach, trite but I f*in love it!
13. what do you really hate: being stuck here right now
14. do you have a job: yes, but its a job, not a career
15. do you like being around people: depends on the people
16. have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yeah just about everyone Ive ever liked
17. have you ever cried: Si
18. are you lonely right now: Yeah thanks for the 50 different ways of asking
19. song that's stuck in your head a lot: Smooth operator
20. been in love: Thought I was, who ever knows if they actually are or not
21. played strip poker: no
22. got lost: yes and often
23. done an all-nighter: Ive never actually studied throughout the night, but Ive been up all night before

Current Mood: energetic
12:03 am
Gotta dance, gotta dance!!!
So we all got dressed up in our finest and semi-finest and headed out to the black party over at Marcella's. Even though they moved, I have determined that I am extreme people-clausterphobic; I actually did end up freaking out at one point and screaming at the top of my lungs at people to get the hell out of my way.

The drag shows were okay- I dont see what the big deal is. Maybe its because youre all worked up dancing etc and then they just stop the music and expect you to watch in a hot little room. Let me tell you something though: I could get used to that whip- I kind of liked it!

I have done absolutely nothing over my long weekend, unless you count staining the back porch. Tomorrow is my last day of freedom before return to the toenails on Thursday.

I wish I could do more extra work- I think if I lived in NYC or LA, I would be a pro-extra in movies. Sure its grueling and annoying, but its also kind of fun and you get to meet the coolest people.

Okay thats it for me...
Sunday, September 4th, 2005
4:26 pm
Nothing Compares- TO YOU!
Now I have that Sinead O'Connor song stuck in my head. Hung out with Shan and John last night- Kent didnt end up calling until like 12:30, and since IM like elderly now, I was too tired to go and meet him. Oh well. Ce la vie...

We watched TIME CHASERS and Freddy vs. Jason- Shan spotted Evangeline Lilly in the background, ha ha.

Well my singledom is still going fine. Im trying to work on getting like healthy and buff.

Faso called this morning- she's in town because her grandfather died. Lot of people dying around me- thats not good, not at all. Everyone is coupling off- when Shan gets married, Ill probably never see her again, lol.

Were going to go to Marcella's tonight, and I sware if C says anything to anyone that I DONT LIKE, bitch is going down.

Mom is back in town- which lets me off the hook for grams. I dont have to work until Thursday- yay!!! But it will be here soon enough. I came to this weird conclusion- you know how some people prefer career over relationships? I think Im one of those who would choose relationships over work. Maybe its easy for me to say that since I have no real career path at this time. The good thing is its never toolate for me with the film thing- evidently just about anyone can become a PA.

All the stuff in New Orleans is bad- mom and watched two guys and a dog get rescued from one of the rooftops.

Okay now IM just rambling, so IM going to go.

Current Mood: lethargic
Friday, September 2nd, 2005
11:43 am
And Im a siren...Ill wreck you on my shores
So I dont have to work for a whole week, thanks to the holiday weekend...whoo! Im supposed to go sightseeing today with Kent- I met the guys for a beer last night on Chippewa...McMonkeez of all places, so not where I expected that lot to be. They were very out of place.

Some people got hit last night though, and I guess it was pretty messy because they had the whole intersection at Delaware and Chippewa blocked off. I wonder if it was a drunk driver because usually people crawl along there, knowing full well there are a lot of pedestrians.

Kiel was there and with this chick that he talked about the first time I ever met him- I hope I didnt embarass him. He was like "what are you doing here?" and I simply said Kent invited me. I wonder if Kiel is sticking around for that chick....awww. Hes so cute. He said that Kent liked me. ANd Kent thought that Richard was an idiot the whole shoot. LOL.

Yeah I think that maybe Kent is too cool and indie for me. Oh well.

THE LOST forums are sooo funny, someone has pictures of Ian, Dominic and I think Matthew Fox in cowboy hats with the little line "SAVE A HORSE- RIDE A COWBOY!" udnerneath. I thought it was pretty funny anyways.

So at the wrap party they had TALES FROM THE CRAPPER- which the casting director Jamie was in dressed up as a woman- and who was in it? JORGE GARCIA! THATS RIGHT! HURLEY BABY! LOL! Jorge and I have worked for the same EXACT people- its interesting, huh?

Ive decided to take myself off the market- not diffucult to do considering that there isnt one here in Buffalo. But come on- you shouldve seen some of the meatheads out last night- so drunk they were like "WHOO! NEIL ROCKS!" when Neil Diamond was on the stereo. Now I like Neil, because hes an institution of cheesiness...I dont know, maybe its the same for them. But anyway I deleted my profile for WEBDATE. Too much humiliation.

Mom went out of town for my great Aunt Phyllis and Uncle Tom's like 50th wedding anniversary, so its up to me and Sarah to look after Grandma the whole weekend. So its already noon, and I have to pick up grams @ 3...I dont know how much well get to do today, tomorrow will probably be better for the big stuff like the falls. And of course Rachel is essentially useless.

Ended up going over to the DIP N DIVE- and bought for $146 some nice essential equipment- mask, fins, snorkel. The lady was really nice and spent a lot of time with me. I figure the price is worth it if it lasts throughout my program and beyond.

I think it would be amusing that after getting my Masters and everything I end up cutting hair- wouldnt that be something?

Okay going to go!

Current Mood: cheerful
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
9:13 pm
Oooh Baby Im a Fool For You
Well, I just got back from Shanin's. We went to AMVETS and looked at furniture- saw a kick ass couch that was "claimed" by someone else. But if they didnt come back to pay for it tonight, it was going back on sale for tomorrow. So hopefully Shan and Mike will get it.

I cut Shanin's hair- felt bad because I did the bangs shorter than intended, but otherwise it wasnt bad. Im going to get better I sware honey!

My friend Wankie sent me an actual pic of the actual tattoo:



Kent actually called me. Surprise, honestly. So were going sightseeing on Friday. Poor man is too nice to even like ask I come to get him- not too surprising considering he doesnt know where he is- only "some suburb".

I finally got my phone fixed- well, a new phone anyways for $85- this dude found a used one for me. Its nice to have a phone again.


Current Mood: flirty
Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
9:35 pm
Make like a tree- and get oughta here!
Well I heard from my college, and yep, there is going to be a Maritime Fieldschool starting February 1 that I have already been enrolled in- so I guess that means Im going to be there sometime in January! AHHHH! Scary! Coming up very soon...and Im so incompetent with my diving now. Going over to the Dip N Dive tomorrow to signup for a refresher course and probably get some of my own equipment. AHHH! Again! So sudden! When I applied it seemed a million miles away. I also have to go over to the Post Office and put in a LOST Passport claim and get a new one. The only thing Ill miss about my old one is all my stamps- I was getting a decent collection starting. But it did get totally waterlogged a few times.

Im also getting scared that I wont have a job. The woman I replaced came back- with really bad knees, but seemed surprised that she had a desk job now. Who knows.

Current Mood: relieved
9:18 am
FInd yourself another dumb blonde...
Yes thats right, I used a HOKU lyric as my title. Oh well.

Went to the wrap party- I dont understand, it wouldve been so much nicer if it had been on Saturday, because I had to work early on Monday. It was a lot of fun, and more and more people that I actually knew came, including Kyle *sexy beast*. You know who guy was there- talking to another girl the whole time. What a player- at least I didnt ruin my night hanging on him. Actually I was non-drunk when I ended up telling him he was a tease. She looks like a boy and has a boyfriend already- so she has to monopolize 2 GUYS? I dont get cheating, I really dont. If you are unhappy over here, then break up. I dont understand.

And also Wankie (Sam) who actually followed one of the extras down to Fredonia to get a tattoo of Kurt Russell from ESCAPE TO NEW YORK on his arm (I kid you not- I could never make that up).



But that kid is such a sweetheart- only 19, a sweetheart. He convinced me to stay the few times I was leaving. This other kid Nikos was coming onto me too (also only 19, I dont know what that means). And this guy Kent who I actually liked for some reason, I think hes age appropriate AND is going to be in Buffalo for a while. SO we all exchanged information, so who knows. Maybe hell call me, maybe he wont. Wankie was kind of all over me so I think maybe Kent was scared off. Oh well. Wankie is more like a little brother or something. Hes the most un-New Yorker like New Yorker Ive ever met. Grew up in Brooklyn. BROOKLYN!

Im looking over at the TROMA forum, it seems my friends who have gone home are having serious withdrawal- reminds me of when I got back from my digs. Same thing.

I was at work from 8:30 - 8:30 yesterday. They werent even done when I left, I was just SO tired it was unbelievable. Watched part of BLIND DATE- these two actually had a good date until he was trying to convince her to come to his place and she was trying to explain she doesnt go home with people on the first date. He actually went into this rant about "it takes two to tango" and if she wants a second date she has to "give a little". SO that was the kabash on that. In the recap she said how disappointing it was to have that happen after they had an okay time. His advice to her was to "update her policies". Uh-huh. You werent that hot dude. Anyway I just thought it was funny and thought I would share.
Friday, August 26th, 2005
11:53 pm
Movies
So I watched RULES OF ATTRACTION- and have thus far found only one flaw in Ian Somerhalder (besides the fact that he smokes)- that he has Will Smith ears. But paraphrasing Shakespeare's sonnet #CXXX, its our flaws that make us lovable. Awww...

CXXX.

My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red;
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask'd, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go;
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground:
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.


Going with Shanin and John to see Kilbrannon tomorrow night- figured after I have some dutch courage calling you know who may not be entirely humiliating- and after seeing Ian dance around in his underwear to "Faith" by George Michael- nothing is humiliating in the search for true love. He, at least, had some dancing with him- a drunk childhood friend who was also gay, so there you have it.

I enjoyed a few compliments of the Meade that John bought me for my birthday- how enjoyable!

night everyone!

Current Mood: pleased
6:35 pm
Its 6:35 PM- do you know where YOUR life is???
So I decided to give that webdate thing another chance, since thats how 2 friends of mine met and are very happy. But ewww, some of the people who IM me, and I have a decent picture on there. If they coiuld learn basic spelling and grammar, they may have had a decent head start. Whatever. Soon I can begin looking for a bloke in Australia, they seem to be better looking there (except for that hottie John of course). And yes, I am going to call that person tomorrow.

I spent part of the day trying on decent outfits, so I have a few candidates- ELLEN- among them is that dress from TARGET. $3.47 for a reversible Hawaiian dress which is quite cute actually. But I dont know, it depends on how Im feeling. Ill probbaly call and he'll politely find a way out of going with me.

I am going to call Shanin and see if she wants to watch Toxic Avenger with me. Rachel rented it for me ala-Netflix...

Okay going now!

Current Mood: giddy
Thursday, August 25th, 2005
8:54 pm
End of another work-week...
Yep the weekend begins tomorrow for me.

Missed the concert downtown, and Im a bad friend. So there.

Was at work 12 hours today. I wasted yesterday dicking around at the movie set, dressed up like a zombie. I ended up leaving, they werent going to be done til like 11, and I had to be at work at 8:30 today. Plus I was starving, and I knew they were not going to feed us. Oh well.

Yes I am invited to the wrap party- thinking about calling you know who once I get more info on where it is etc. I suspect its going to be in that hot little church.

Anyway today was another wonderful of mutated feet and crotchety old people. Hopefully when I get old, I wont be that bitter just to be alive.

My boss said that he is going to call HIS insurance and see if my window is covered, which would be awesome. I do, however, have a moral dilemma: should I accept the check of $145 from my dad anyways? I probably wont. Damn concious.

Shanin's b-friend Mike had his car broken into also. What the hell is going on? He ran into the street, interupting them. Im just happy he didnt end up getting shot or something over it.

Okay gotta go, my mom wants to rub my feet, so I feel I JUST MUST let her.

Ta-ta!

Current Mood: relaxed
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
9:08 pm
Today was a little better
Ellen is such a sweetheart, life partner!

Im feeling a little better. Only in America could I have my window broken and less than 24 hours later have it fixed already. I paid for it myself, but my father might be sending me the money which would be uber-awesome. Yeah thats right- I said uber-awesome!

I took my mom out to lunch at Applebee's today. I had the Oriental Wrap in case everyone was just on the edge of their seats wondering about that one.

For some reason it hit me last night that I am an awesome person and if he never calls, Ill be fine. Im moving up and out (as always). But Im going to go to that concert tomorrow and have fun. The only downer is that I have to go to work on Thursday- oh well, Ill just go tired. My mom is going to drop me off, I dont want to leave my car there again.

Man I hope that sleazy little Urin-Van Da Slut- stays in jail. Jerk.

Anyway didnt do much today. I have to go to an appt tomorrow at 9 am (bleh! what was I thinking???) but Im going to come home and do my Tahitian Cardio. I have no idea whether Ive gained weight or lost, I really have no idea anymore.

Okay thanks!

Current Mood: calm
Monday, August 22nd, 2005
10:23 pm
The summer of crap!
Well today was my first day back at work...which was okay. But my car got broken into. So in summary:

1.)I was scammed out of $1300
2.)I had a diseased gall bladder
3.) Surgery for aforementioned gall bladder
4.) Got dumped
5.) Broke my cell
6.) Car was broken into

Yep yep yep.

On a positive note, the first day of Shanin's day shift went well, which makes me happy. Shes excited about Wedensday, as am I. Yay! Im trying to jazz myself about it.

The movie people called yesterday, they really want "my scream" for the movie. SO I will be the only one to be both a customer and a zombie. Ill be in the movie more than Richard, heh heh. So there ego-maniac man! Apparently Im invited to the wrap party too, which means I need a really good date in case Richie is there.

Okay so I feel really weird about today- I dont know how Im feeling right now. I wish I could be more nonchalant about the guy thing, but I cant. Im sorry. But Im excellent at faking said non-chalantness.

Okay probably going to go to sleep because Im bored!

Current Mood: weird
Sunday, August 21st, 2005
7:41 pm
Off to bed...
Watched Six Feet Under series finale with my mom. Self obsessed people, horrible show.

I feel myself spiraling out and its not good- its not easy to get yourself out once youre in. But IM so sick of being this "strong person" who moves on and out. It would be wonderful to stop moving my feet for once and just be. Just be happy for once, standing still. Why do I always have to "be strong" about something? Why cant someone else just be strong for once? Why cant I just have something to feel good about? Im exhausted of being resilient and strong and a force to be reckoned with. I dont like being described with the same words one would describe the space shuttle with.

Even though Richard was an utter loser and I knew that he was- it was so nice to be desired. Even for a little while.

I just feel like hidden away, at work under the fluorescent lights and at home, with nowhere to go.

Ive spent over half my life worrying about men think and what my weight is like. Im only 23, Im exhausted!!! Ill freely admit it- I hate exercise. Thats right. And I like to eat. Yeah I do! HA! And I want a boyfriend. Its sounds sad and a bit adolescent, but thats what I want.

Im terrified of Australia coming up. Everyone else is so happy, except for my mom who tends to act bi-polar about it (really positive one second, the next saying I wont be able to go). I know Im going to go there, same sh*t, different accents. Ill come home feeling like an loser. A loser who will have a Masters Degree.

I cant even have an effing dog! Sarah's allergic! There are just times when I feel really really alone, and maybe this is one of those times. I have no outlet for anger, I have no outlet for my frustration. I fear my livejournal is getting the brunt of it.

Now I have to go into work and act like Ms. Pretty Princess of the Podiatrists Office, and act like nothings wrong to the old bastards who come to the place. The only solace in it is that I wont be bored waiting for some dude to call who never will. But for some reason, because I am an idiot, I will still go to the Chippewa Street concert hoping to see him there. Why oh why? Because I am a diluted optimist with a realistic cynic living inside me whom I dont listen to and occasionally, in the words of Homer Simpson "poke with a Q-Tip".

Okay then good night everyone!

Current Mood: frustrated
3:08 pm
Bored out of my skull
Starting work again tomorrow, which is good- Ill have something to do at least.

Shanin is- still alive- and in for the Chippewa concert thing on Wedensday. Ellen is driving up from Jamestown which is really sweet. I think I might straighten my hair.

I went walking around Delaware Lake. I just needed to get out of my house. In the words of Glenn, from Wayne's World:

"So- I hear you're putting on some kind of concert. That's good. People need to be entertained, they need the distraction. I wish to God that someone would be able to block out the voices in my head for five minutes, the voices that scream, over and over again: "Why do they come to me to die? Why do they come to me to die?"

We all need the distraction mu-ha-ha.

John and I went to the Scottish Festival yesterday. Events like this, which are littered all over WNY are always kind of a laugh. Pay to go and spend more money. Kilbrannan was playing, however, and I suspect that was the REAL reason John wanted to go, lol. Shanin- if you read this, you know WHO from that group actually hit on me yesterday...2 years too late. John made fun of me afterwards because of it.

It was fun nonetheless. We went out for Indian food afterwards because I desperately did NOT want to go home and eat chili, which what was on the menu.

I know the people who read this are the same people I talk to all the time; sorry nothing new is happening people!

Current Mood: bored
Friday, August 19th, 2005
10:54 pm
Okay going to actually TRY to keep this updated
Okay. See that others I know are on here and its a good way to keep in touch...with people that I talk with on the phone all the time. But I digress...

I think Im going to buy John at least 1 beer tomorrow at the Scottish Festival. He deserves it. Hes the most loyal person Ive ever met, honestly. I dont know why some people- I wont name them, they know who they are- are mean to him. John you go for that cute girl at work- whoo-hoo!

Im officially a huge dork, being really "moved" by this weeks episode of Battlestar Galactica. Yeah I think that says a lot for the shit Ive been through this week.

I believe my part is officially over in "Poultrygeist: Attack of the Chicken Zombies" and that Richard left the state today, thank god. Well plowing the director's underage daughter must take a lot out of you, I suppose. Now I met a new guy I like but Im sure that wont go anywhere, but I cant help setting myself up for disappointment.
Is it wrong for the guy on the Allstate commercials to make me feel better? I wonder if I could get him to be my voicemail- make me feel good about having no messages.

Current Mood: tired
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